For a long time, I’ve felt disconnected, unsettled. It’s hard to get to a certain place in your life where you feel familiar, where you are comforted by that familiarity. I know it might be hard to understand, but I’ve longed for some time for a home of my own.
With my ex, we had our own place(s) but they always felt like his. I always felt like a visitor. Growing up, things like this didn’t really cross my mind. But I always had one constant in my life. Our annual trip to San Fransisco.
The air is different there. Every year, the first night there, I would step outside our hotel room and just listen to the city, breathe it in. The chill in the air, the smell of the ocean. The way the city vibrates. It’s completely alive and I always felt that.
It’s hard for people to understand why I love that city so much. Sometimes I don’t really understand it. But no matter, maybe when I am there this weekend, I’ll realize why. Or maybe, I’ll just remember how the city makes me feel, and revel in it.
There are three places in the world I would live if I had to leave Chicago – New York, London and San Francisco. In all three places I have found an energy and a vibe that just spoke to me. I can fully understand why you love San Francisco. Absolutely.
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I’ve always felt that way about Charleston SC. It is my favorite city, and I just can’t describe the way it makes me feel. There is something amazing about connecting with a place that way.
Enjoy your trip!
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That song was my theme song all summer. LOVE it. I am bummed I’m going back to Oregon this weekend because I could hug your face BEFORE Vegas! <3
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When I lived with my ex, it was always HIS house, not our house, for a variety of reasons. I never felt at home there.
I am happy to live in my house, in my town.
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I totally get this. I feel the same way about Manhattan and San Francisco as well. I visited there once and was so impressed. London is quite amazing too…
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I love San Francisco. I lived there for 6 years, but had planned on living there the rest of my life. (Just another thing I resent my X for.) There is so much culture, shopping, food, beauty and life in that city. I miss it constantly. Enjoy your trip and make sure to stop in at that clothing shop on Union St. I told you about. xo
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