January 2, 2010 by Miss

The hardest thing in life to learn is which bridge to cross and which to burn.
-David Russell

Have you ever used the term “we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it?”

I’ve used it in many different ways. Sometimes it’s very effective. It gets the job done when calming a person and their “what if’s” down. Hell, it has calmed me down when I’ve given myself pep talks once in awhile.

The start of a new year, the start of a new decade brings me hope. In the last decade, I’ve had amazing things happen to me. Some of them were devastating, some were incredible.

I graduated from high school. I graduated from college. I became a mother. I was suddenly responsible for the LIFE of another human being. His survival depended on me. You will never know the weight of that responsibility until you become a parent. You will also never understand it’s enormity, or its breathtaking beauty.

In the decade we just closed, I lost myself. Time and time again. I rediscovered who I was as a woman, as a friend, and as a lover more than once. I learned that everyone who comes into my life, be it for good or bad, can teach me something important. I figured out that instead of settling for ok, I am allowed to have amazing, that love in every connotation knows absolutely NO bounds. I’ve found so many blessings in so many unexpected places and I’ve finally learned how to recognize them and embrace them.

You have no idea how lucky I am. Sometimes I have to remind myself and every single time I make that realization again, I’m blown away.

It’s 2010. The start of a new year, the start of a new decade. Every day I’m going to remind myself that I can do anything with the day ahead of me, that it’s only up to me to make the rest of my life something amazing.

Can you imagine what this decade will bring? The possibilities are so open and so endless that it takes my breath away.

When I’m reflecting on this decade, in 2020, I want it to be beautiful.

I know it will be.

Because that bridge is here, and I’m crossing it.