So here I am, going on and on about how 2010 is going to be my year and how I can make it into whatever I want it to be and blah blah blah…
I got laid off today.
Not exactly what I meant 2010. Not at all.
Truth be told, I hated my job. I loathed my job. Just this morning, as I was walking up the stairs, “I wish I didn’t have to go in there” ran through my head. The last time I said that was at a job I had 5 years ago that was awful. To be honest, this job wasn’t as bad but it was still pretty terrible. “New (bitchy) management” had no clue what she was doing. She attempted to make us exclude our previous manager who knew the business inside and out and when we did have a question, she would just end up asking the other manager for the answer. It was pathetic. She completely fubar’d an otherwise good (time consuming, but much more logical) filing system for one she thought would save time. It didn’t. I would know, I was in charge of it. Stacks and stacks of paperwork filled my cubical.
I had recently gotten a raise. Finally received a review after it was long over due. I didn’t mention it because well… it was for 12 cents more an hour. That equaled 400 dollars more. A year. 400 dollars more a year. That isn’t even a car payment. They paid me just enough to show up, but no where close to enough to give a shit about that place.
Regardless of all that, I stayed because it was work. Because I got a paycheck every two weeks.
And now, I have no idea where my income is going to come from. That? Is a shitty feeling.
I’m hoping that this is the opportunity I need to really push myself to have a better life. I need to provide better for my son and one of my biggest goals this year was to move back out on my own. Maybe this is a jumping off point for that. Right now, I have no real plan or answers. But I have an amazing support system who is already helping me get in gear to find somewhere that can help me achieve these goals.
I’m thankful, I’m blessed, and things aren’t quite as scary as they were this afternoon.
You are brilliant and gorgeous and this is just EXACTLY what you needed to find a job that you love. [or at minimum, do not loathe]
Visualize yourself finding the job of your dreams. If you don’t know what that is yet?
Don’t worry, just visualize how that job will make you FEEL. Imagine yourself psyched to go to work because you have a Really Cool Project underway. Yeah? Yeah.
Rock it!
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well … shit!
honestly, though, sometimes it takes the shocker to make us take a step toward something better.
this too shall pass.
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Don’t worry, sweets … we will find you something so much better. This is a blessing in disguise. xoxoxo
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You will find a great job and things will be even better. I’m looking for a personal assistant, and the job is clothing optional. Send your resume and photos.
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I always try to look at things as a sign or a push that you wouldn’t have given yourself. Sometimes we get comfortable and safe and it’s hard to see what is truly out there and better our lives. It does suck. I’ll give you that. I feel for you. I’m glad that this happened now and not when you did move out and start based on the consistency of this paycheck. I know something better is out there for you. I don’t believe in sacraficing happiness for a paycheck. I hope you find both hun.
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One door closes, another opens. You are bright and articulate. I’m sure you’re not going to have any problem moving onward and upward. Just don’t sell yourself short.
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You are a strong woman and I have no doubts that you can do this! I’m sorry about it though…that really does suck. Here’s to a better job you will love!
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I think you will see this company did you a favor. Hating your job is the worst feeling to have every day. I am hating mine, but seeking elsewhere. My suggestion is to contact staffing agencies as many good companies don’t always list on public sites. Just make sure they don’t charge you anything, they should only charge the employer. That’s a good thing so the agency will work to find you the highest pay they can so they get paid more.
I can reach out to my resources I have, but I don’t know how many have West coast offices. Let me know.
2010 WILL be your year.
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If you could do anything (and you can!), what would you do?
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This is seriously one door closing so that you can see a window in front of you. Or whatever that cliché is. Something more you, more passionate, and more loved will smack you in the face with its potential. Just watch, six or twelve months from now, you’ll be happier with work than you’ve been in years!
That being said, you should totally apply to Adam. Also, Janet said ‘the shocker’, so I thought it was important to highlight.
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I know it sounds like bullshit right now, but I believe everything happens for a reason. A year from now when you are doing your 2011 post, you’ll understand and appreciate why this happened. For now, there’s booze. But I’m truly sorry about this shitty setback.
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This sucks butt. Have you applied for unemployment? It could take a little while to a find a new job in this economy and it’s your money that you have contributed all your working life, it is not a handout!
You are young, smart, and sparkly! You’ll find something that you love, just keep at it!
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Oh sweetness. That’s scary. You’ll pull through though. Windows, doors, whatever the fuck that saying is.
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Yowch. That sucks, but will, for SURE, lead to better things.
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Oh no, I’m so sorry! I see that Busy Dad basically said exactly what I was going to say, that it sounds like bullshit, but things seem to happen for a reason. I know the reason is a really, really, really good one…it has to be.
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I hate being late to parties, because all the wittier people have said everything worth saying. Fuckers.
I love you.
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Oh man, man oh man getting laid off first of the year is such a bummer. Gah. Here’s hoping you find a much better gig really soon. Sometimes it takes a boot to kick you in the right direction. Keep up the good attitude.
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I’m going to go with blessing in disguise. I’ll bet you’ll end up with a fantastic job that you love, making big bucks because you deserve it and all it took was that first step of getting rid of that shitty job to find the job of your dreams!
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I’m sorry to be so late in commenting here, Miss. The immediacy of having no paycheck sucks right now, but there IS a silver lining – it would be very different if you loved your job and you had the most wonderful boss in the world, but you didn’t. So in a way you are fortunate that this will springboard you into a much, much better direction. Here’s hoping that opportunity comes along for you real soon xoxo.
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Oh holy christ. I certainly picked a great time to not know what is going on with anyone for a few weeks. I’m so sorry you had to experience this.
Perhaps 2010 IS your year, and this is just the first step in how it will manifest itself for you. From what I can tell, you are a smart, savvy, rockin’ lady – I know you’ll pull through. So let’s call this the first gift of 2010, getting you out of a job you hate. 2 1/2 weeks have gone by since then, I’m hoping something good has headed your way!
Also, I’m caught up now, so I won’t be flooding you with any more comments this evening.
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